u can laugh, i dont mind...

making choices sometimes can make someone spell "stupid" on ur face,
or laughing out loud at ur back...

few people can understand how it felt walking in our shoes..

no matter what people say how moronic i am, i know that this is worth to fight for..

its even worth to die for...



dadar guling...

i hope we already do...

Colbie Caillat - Realize

Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down on in.
Take time to realize that I am on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize,
Oh, oh, I'm on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
Take time to realize this all can pass you by.
Didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other oh.

It's not the same.
No, it's never the same,
If you don't feel it too.
If you meet me halfway,
If you would meet me halfway,
It can be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder...

Just realize what I just realized,
If you just realize what I just realized... ooh ooh.
Missed out on each other now.
Missed out on each other now.

Realize, realize, realize, realize, oh...

uncertainity is either a bless or doom : u choose...

dibanyak kepribadian yg memiliki kehidupan, manusia pasti membenci "ketidakpastian"...secara manusiawi pasti manusia membutuhkan jawaban atas hidupnya...pertanyaan2 tersebut hanya akan berakhir bila manusia mati...

banyak kehidupan yg berakhir bila manusia tersebut mati menyerah atas usahanya mencari "kepastian" dan "jawaban"...they're not strong enough to wait the uncertainity...giving up for what they call last effort by suiciding them self...

menyerah juga bukan hanya tentang bunuh diri, tapi juga pelan2 menyerahkan diri pada kematian...

namun sebenarnya ketidakpastian bisa merupakan berkah yg tersembunyi..manusia menunggu berkah tersebut dgn perasaan yg ingin dikejutkan dgn akhir yg bahagia..berharap bhw dgn memiliki harapan atas datangnya jawaban, akan menjadikan hidupnya sempurna dgn hadiah Tuhan yg mereka tunggu2...

sekarang masalahnya tinggal satu dgn 2 pilihan keputusan : apakah ketidakpastian merupakan kenikmatan atw penderitaan bagi manusianya?

apakah logika dan batin siap menunggu jawaban tersebut? atw menyerah krn penyiksaan yg terjadi krn menunggu?

ur answer..ur choice..evrything is about choice and risk...

masks..

try to find my masks again...
never thought would be like this again...
being someone for someone else...
not being someone for myself...

i tried many ways to see smile on ur face..
or even evryones faces..
i'm not trying to find my own smile...

for the years in front of me,
from now on..
i am nothing...

mother...

today i'm babysit arya...krn mba'e minta pulang kampung, jadi deh tuh bocah diculik sm keluarga gw..

hohoho..menyenangkan sekali yah punya bayi, aq pingin jadinya..ehehehehe...untung ngamuk mode nya hari ini ga nyala, anteng aja tuh..genit2 sm ade gw..ehehehe...normal brarti doi...

sometimes it hurts so much seeing babies..hurts coz i havent had it yet...still dont know if God will give me some someday..with who? hiks..God knows it from whom...

having concieve it on my belly...babies...child...teenager...grownups... :( cant wait!!!

i can...

when evry unspoken words isn't ur passion anymore...
when evry drop of my tears didn't hurt u anymore...

we speak of our hatred,
repeating either each disagreement and apologies..
reminiscing evry wounds..
makes us even go further into the goodbyes...

i'm not scared...
bcoz u promise to fly..
bcoz u promise to be happy...

i'm ur bestfriend...
u'll home to me with a big grin in ur face...
u'll home to me soon with each of ur dreams in ur hands..
we'll cherish evry anger with the calamity from our present...

and we smile to our past...

i know...i can....

mimpikuuu....

semua mimpiku bbrp sudah berakhir...even though its hard to accept, i'm very sure that i still can hold on...never knew when death will come, but i will try to do evrything i can to live for my own...

before i die, hope God will give me a chance (if God still think that i'm only human) i can go to where my dream's belong...



pulau derawan @ kalimantan timur, lepas pantai tanjung redeb



pulau komodo

bengong...

yaaaaah...daripada bengong2 ga enak mikir macem2 kan mending nulis ya? nulis apa jg ga tau krn ga boleh nulis macem2 tuh katanya...

jadi mau nulis apa dong yah? ga tau...abis yg mau ditulis juga ga bisa ditulis...

sambil nulis tapi tetep makan silverqueen..jadi ya udah..ribet dah...mending gw pulang aja ya daripada disini toh akhirnya tetep juga gw nulis di blog..aneh loo!!

happy bday for me..starting new day from today...

its not a happy day actually...but i was strong enough to get through it...
after a long conversation..dried our tear then shed it...
we both did a humongous mistakes yesterday, hoping we could heal from time to time...and try not doing other mistakes...
think we really should not meet at all for awhile...still hard being in the same room just the two of us...
anyway..thanks for the chocholate, dadar guling..

nu lookbook!!!

just trying to creative on behalf my stressed days....hehehehe..enjoy folks!! ^_^

well, i do hated u 4 what u hv had with my bestfriend...

simply bcz it was like a backstabbing...cz u both didnt chosed to told me the truth...it was hard to know from anyone's head, bcz it wasnt from both of u...

guessing it my self like it was a criminal of mind and criminal for u both...

i hated it bcz i liked to made friends with u both...and when the story goes, with evryone talks shit bout u both around me, it seemed so unfair to me...one bcz she didnt let me know bout it...2nd bcz u acted like i doomed ur relationship...well, i might doomed it...but u always know talks will ease my pain...

i dont like having enemies, but u cant judge for what i felt for u wasnt fair for ur feelings for her, bcz u never said it loud to me...

maybe i know this feeling is coming cz i cared bout u still, we used to have laughs and fights...i missed those days...

welll...for now it's fine for me...choose u'r own life, but plis? dont let me be the last to know?

aku jatuh cinta....

mmm...abis nonton 500)days of summer...film yang bitter sweet...tapi lalu aq jatuh cinta dengan lagu sweet disposition...

pas filmnya abis, langsung deh hunting ke bagian soundtracknya...langsung download ke lime wire dan mencari tahu tentang temper trap...

oo...wow! the vocalist is indonesian!!! namanya dougie mandagi asli menado!! hebat!! doi skul di ostrali dan bikin band ma temen2 ostralinya...the first indonesian vocalist filled soundtrack for american movie! faboulous!! and its been so long i'd been enjoyed music and now i'm eager to download every song of them...

alraight then, let me finish it while you can enjoy their first single and video clip that been filled soundtrack of 500 days of summer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jxKjOOR9sPU

enjoy :D...

another marriage...another "wheen??"

minggu kmrn sepupu gw (klan terakhir dari suku ciputat) nikah dibogor...alhamdulillah rame lancar aja...

dan seperti biasa pada banyak yg mulai nyindir2 "giliran km kapan"..."syp yah abis ini?"...bla bla blaa...di jelaskan saja sebisanya lah...huehehehehe....

tapi bermain denagn ponakan cantik ku yang lucu kayak tantenya : Alisha


btw, murid gw gejala usus buntu...jadi ga les semingguan nih...libuuuurrr...

tapi saya harus tetap mencari uang...akhirnya setelah hunting sama nanda dan foto2 sm pacar...jadi juga barusan aplot heheheheehe...



mudah2an rame lancaaaarr!!! amiiinn!!!!

hadeeeeehh...ada2 aja nih org2...tiba2 aja ada org sms gw bilang gw penipu, baju ga sesuai dan robek juga katany...tapi dari no nya gw ga kenal dan ga ada di database buyer juga...

udah di smsmin, nulis di notes badjoeku http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=383446719929&id=1787503768&ref=mf bahkan blog multiply juga udah..tp ga ada yg dibales...aneh d...

tapi gara2 gtuan doang, hati nih jadi spaneng aja bawaannya, gedeg, kesel, pikiran...baju manaaa lagi yg dimaksud...org ga ada nama dan kode bajunya kok..gimana gw bisa bantu tu org...

haaaaaaahh!!!!

blm juga sempet nyobain...eeehh, udah keluar lagi...

blm juga sempet beli iphone seri jadul..eeehhh..dy keluar lagi yg baru, makin tipis dan makin canggih...ck ck ck...a phone for my dreaammmm...

ni produk baru akan rilis bulan juni nanti...huuuuhhh...*drooling

Apa yang Baru?

- Penambahan kamera video chat
- Kamera belakang lebih bagus, lensanya lebih besar daripada iPhone 3GS
- Ada flash kamera
- Penggunaan Micro-SIM
- Layar lebih baik, resolusinya dianggap jauh lebih tinggi dibanding iPhone 3GS. Ini disimpulkan Gizmodo setelah meneliti beberapa komponen yang terkait dengan layar.
- Ada mic sekunder untuk noise cancellation
- Tombol terpisah untuk volume
- Tombol power, mute dan volume berbalut metalik.

Apa yang Berubah?

- Bagian belakang benar-benar datar
- Terdapat alumunium di sekujur bagian pinggir ponsel
- Layar sedikit lebih sempit ketimbang iPhone 3GS namun resolusi lebih tinggi
- Lebih berat 3 gram ketimbang iPhone 3GS
- Baterai lebih besar 16 persen ( fyk / ash )

inspired picts...

yaahhh...beresin masih angot2an nih...hehehehe

akhirnya bisa juga beresin blognya...ahaaayyy....sejadi2nya aja dulu kali yaaa, tar kalo bosen utak utik lagi...

thanks to nanda :)

ketinggalan jaman

hiyaaaaahhhh...akhirnya setelah bertaun2 pgn punya blog dan disetan2 nin sm nanda jadi juga nih blog..asli ketinggalan jaman abeeesss...


well...gw beresin dulu lah nih blog biar enak dipandang ^_^